Frustrated

Yo, I don't wanna live no more
Sometimes I hear depression knocking at my front door
I'm living everyday like a hustle, another job to juggle
Another day another struggle, yo
I know its fucked up what a lack of cake'll do
A few people wanna move in and stay wit u
U wish u cud help them all, but you ain't able to
Cause the rents a little late plus the cable's due
you and your girlfriend are beefin' in a serious way
yoU used to b faithful NOW u at a curious stage
Finally got your mind made up on going your separate ways

Nah homie, her period's late now
ur time'z runnin out do it quickly
Cuz she starts cryin, mood's gettin sticky
If I dont want it she'll want nuttin 2 do wit me
JUST GET THE ABORTION AND I'LL GIVE U THE 250!
But if u say dat to her dan u wrong
yoU ain't think bout that u was getting your groove on
Can't take care of myself nevermind a new born
I guess the pussy got 2 good for2long
Seems like my money goes by 2 easy
Y I hate dat my job only pays bi-weekly
Fridge is empty, but I survive the hunger
Who the hell keeps calling from dis private number?
there's money on my mind and my nails are dirty
Depression starts talking and his voice is nasty
im trying to ignore but its starting to get to me
Look, mustache is full, hair is nappy
these jeans ain't mine because they way 2 baggy
Priorities fucked up and shit starting to gas me
It'z like my lil' man's life slipped right past me
His name's Duane SO WHY THE FUCK MY SON KEEP CALLIN' HIM DADDY?!
Same shit that I feared after all these years
I gotta breathe I cant believe my ears
Wiping out my eyes I'm damn near in tears
But I cant be mad, I know I ain't been there

Grab his momz I throw her against the door
But in the back of ya mind u know it ain't her fault
I ain't mad at all, I'm just hurt
I get honest 4 real I ain't been the best father like
Toys 'R Us, Chuck E Cheese
U know a lil' boy grow up wit these needs
New Year's or Christmas, even the birthday
At least bring the kid 2 his school on the first day
I cant believe it, dis the same way that I was treated
So maybe it's history repeated
I know it sounds sick the idea of having another kid
But dis one it really feel like its his

It's the truth and I hate that fact
WAIT, shouldn't of said that I take that back
Look, I apologize let's rewind dis whole story like NaS

Tried to fix my shortcomings I just came up short.........