Thinking Of You

Masterpiece Part 2

"Many hearts we should've left unbroken
Empty words are better left unspoken"... Chris Brown ( Famous Girl)

DISClAIMER!
I hope nobody takes this outta context....I hate being misunderstood. This is me just venting....

I realized I have made mistakes in the past...I can't go back and change that... I kno
I prolly hurt you and Its over....I'm sorry but in reality it wasn't there, it was best when We called it off...I know I lied to you and about you and kept you hidden but u had your share of lies and dirty little secret. But its not tit for tat...I wish I could say you was the best I ever had but I would be lying...this may sound like Im coming off harsh but im just sharing how I'm feeling...Its been a heavy burden to play pretend love...In the begining it was good and you was my darlin baby and we always made the bedrock... but things change....and I know you been sleeping with a broken heart lately but I slept with the same thing and to be honest it doesn't mean anything. And of course I kno im not perfect and I don't wear no halo and I did alotta damage but I was selfish in a way. I guess because I gave the greatest performance of my life....so now all i can do is take my bow and move on....I always wished i would of cared more.Im scared that every girl i care for Will find a better man and end up happier in the long run.....

Masterpiece Pt 1

"See in my inner circle all we do is ball
Til we all got triangles on our wall"...Jay Z (Moment of Clarity)

The people I actually consider my friends are true friends. At first when you meet people its not like you intend on looking for them...ya just so happen to meet and just click. Its crazy because I have always been a drifter, i just chill with whoever because you never can trust just anyone but this past semester I did less that and set with few group of people or atleast i tried..lol..my niqqas ROc BOyz...I must say very interesting semester with them....drunk nights...close encounters of death...getting arrested...escorts sunrise and sunset..road trips...bout to blow up 241 Daorb...onsite beef with destiny child...and many more but can't get into that lol...I realized that friends always got ya back even if you 100 percent wrong or certified drunk...I just wanna say thanks to all my friends that was there for me and continue to be there I appreciate it...

Dear Diary.....

I got another side I never showed to you
The side where everybody is disposable
See, relationships are never a threat
'Cause I'll erase the history and act like we never met.........

Im Back....Focused MAnnnnnn

It was fun being gone for a min...but I think Earth is where I belong. They say "aim for the moon and if you miss you land amongst the stars"...Well fuck that I'm trying to land where nobody has reached...maybe Neptune/Venus...I heard its nice around this time of the year.....No more space travel...not until I get my right destination.

Late Night in 643

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When you're up late at night you think about more important things than you would during the day....

Only If I .......

Sometimes I wish I was 5, when my only worries was how many boogers I could pick before anyone saw...smh good timess

I Understand....

......Possibly forever,
We had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end
No use of us pretending to be friends...

Love Always

Dear Summer.....

Whatever You Want to Call It

I'm at a Lost for words..........

I can't do it again....I just can't......

"Loving someone is setting them free, and letting them go.”
- Wis3 Wom3n

I Missed You

I know there has been neglect on my part but I promise I will make it up to you...I need to inform you on my life...

Once Upon a Time

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next....Just Do It...deuce

Untitled

Got a project chick, that plays her part
And if it goes down y'all that's my heart
Baby girl so thorough she been with me from the start
Hid my drugs from the NARCs, hid my guns by the parks.......Jay Z

Time

When is it time to make things right...is it ever enough time...can you go back in time to correct things you wish you had/had not done....I guess time is truly of the essence....only time will tell.....

Hilo Fellow Followers

Hey guys I know I have been slacking on daily basis of events of my life....lol....what else is a blog for right????? Well today was pretty much a relaxation day i woke up like 12 no class...madd hype about that but next week that will change since my professor comes back from a conference. No more sleeping late... I went with Baby D and MeMe to go watch them steal from Target and Old Navy...I find it amusing watching Baby D trying to steal and looking madd obvious, i mean damn they don't have no security and the detectors must be there for show. No lie...she could have tried the outfit on and walked out got a sandwich and came back and stole more shit...and still would have not known. But i can't talk because I steal every day...literally whether its a Snapple, pens, hangars , BIKES, cups, forks, knives, my motto I need it....go get it...right??

Anyway when I came back to campus in the dollar van...my badd...the "shuttle" I made sure I hit up the griddles place, which basically makes breakfast from the morning to 5pm. I love it i got two sandwiches just in case I dropped one but I didn't so I ate both...lol..I did major running run for my club...and made sure everything was organized and ready because I learned dealing with people is hard and mind wrecking but dealing with black and Spanish people..Oh mon dieu! Its like 100 times worst...not literally..bigger exaggeration...I decided Im going to do the radio show again, I wasn't but I had a change of heart..I like it..its fun...and it helps me become familiar with my major...

I chilled with my cuzzo which was cool since I really haven't chilled with him that much since he school started..I want him to do his own thing..but I been hearing he got him a bird tweeting on his shoulder lately had to run dat by him to see wtf was going on..but we cleared it up...he was definitely stealin shit as if he was living in the fucking fields like he never ate before but he fam so its all good....quick note followers... why the hell did I pay 4.99 for a fucking turkey sandwich on two slices of white break...in the hood i could have got a hero two bags of lays and a snapple ice..and a quarter for sum peanut chews and Swedish fish....I was flamming (angry) and they lookin at me like im cheap...fukin MCains I swear....any way I also notice three dudes outside the ACC tryna "Bag" girls coming out...first thought was they from C.C.C but they look even more dumb then that...so im like damnnn townies coming to campus to get fresh meat...and I definitely saw one of dem niqqqas on Sex Offender App ...( That is a very good investment if you have and iPhone or i Touch) But back to my day, saw some "freshies" and I had to pounce on them like a Panther in the Jungle, to come to my meeting because I can't front I went to the AKEBA meeting....SHIT WAS PACKED...dead ass thought I was in Home Room in high school all over...Shout to them Akeba headz....as for them OWE Hoes...no respect I heard Through the great vine...NOBODY CAMEEEEE....but thats what I heard..who knows whats true in Plattsburgh....shyt changes faster in a New york minute. This weekend is a chill weekend can't be going out getting retarded...gotta focus on my studies....ya know how it is...but I must say Bmore/Edmoney been definitely keeping "Karma" alive briefly..I dunno how long its going to last but keep up the hard work.... that's all for now......

"Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean ? ".......Unknown

...........Sigh............

Everything was all good just a week ago......

Lets Call It Off...........Right

Uh, when did you get like this
Least you coulda done is gone an give me a warning
I don't regret like this
So I'll be right there when you wake up in the morning
Saying, this just ain't my style
You can't say you're happy either
You don't even smile, for me

[Chorus:]
Did you agree, we should let it be
And did you agree, it's a must,
Let's call the whole thing off
We used to had enough of us
Let's call the whole thing off
We just had enough of us

[Verse 2:]
When you decided to knock on my door
Did you remember what happened before
The look on your face said you were expecting more
But some things look better inside of the store

[Chorus:]
Did you agree, we should let it be
And did you agree, it's a must,
Let's call the whole thing off
We just had enough of us
Let's call the whole thing off
We just had enough of us

[Verse 3:]
Leave me, leave me, I don't mean to be rude
Wish I had the courage to say everything I planned to
My "friend", my "friend", call herself my "friend"
Tell me that we posed to be friends to the world end
But, ion really feel that
I just really wanna turn the wheels back
Give you all ya notes and wristbands back
You Convince me that time will heal that
Uh, you look for reasons for us to argue
I swear every time we talk
You just tell me how you don't get me
Why you do that... do that... do that..........

Be By Myself

I gotta be by myself....I gotta fly by myself......Imma get high by myself......Its only right.....

Imma Be Iight......

Well this is basically my first official post since being back in Plattsburgh.....its crazii how i dealt with so much before I left but everything happens for a reason...so no need to get in to that i guess family business is just that Family Business...but on the positive side I'm here and classes seem cool..so far....I'm excited about a new semester and new experiences.. I haven't seen everyone, lots of new faces, and old faces. But now I gotta get focused for this semester...my new roomate is madd cool, nothing against "Money Matt".. My room is a still a work in progress, but enough of the talk...off to class Deuce Deuce

Shoppin

Yo its crazii how shopping for school goes...Half the shyt i think i need i probably won't even use. lol. That was me actually laughing because i know the only reason im even thinking about the shit I "think" is for other people...In other news its getting closer and im thinking of setting some goals for myself. I know i probably won't get them all but I always go for atleast 25% of my goals achieved...thats pretty good for Class A Procasinator... You can't push too much or I won't acheive any goals. I know that since Im a leader I must be able to lead but to b honest If people ain't trying to be led then why lead them...I learned that last year and I feel that people are fools trying to learn the hard way but im the bigger fool trying to teach them....Im not going to send out subliminals but the people I deal with on a professional level know who they are....but anywayz...nightyes

SLackin......For Real!!

This a Public Service Announcement......

I apologize for not keeping my dedicated followers up to date on the current events in my life....without further a due......
Back to normal programing......
So let me give you a quick run down of this somewhat event summer....I had a lot of fun. I think that i needed this summer, since last summer i was stuck in the house "drinking ensure for breakfast" and not being able to do anything fun. This summer very much different....sort of... I was working like a slave but it was fun because it help me understand people better. Its crazy because people i met on a daily basis made me seem like a genius, and ANYONE that knows me knows that's pretty hard. I was able to travel to VA in which i had a good time but with family comes drama. Mrs. Smith was more than enough help this summer for me and we had fun too. Chillen with da famz was always eventful....(rash was bout to smack movie attendant for waving his light)I seen a lot of famous people...sent alot of people on their way (People don't listen or read). I was paper touching this summer paying bills..u kno simple shit....The was some down points this summer but there's no need to mention because that's in the past right? Well lets hope so... I was able to see some of the Plastburgians, (COPYWRITTEN) while home. NOT ALOT! Well ..because i already see them at school. but there were a few I caught up with. MOMMENT OF SILENCE FOR THE DEATH OF MY WIFE...............................................................................................................................................XBOX 360 SHE WILL BE MISSED....Soon I will be heading back to the frozen tundra within a week or less and I know, its gonna be a long SEMESTER. but I got high hopes, there's a lot learned each semester and the same goes in to going in to a new semester...lost of new stuff..lets see how it goes...don't worry you'll be the first to know (folle's) I just made that up copyright that to Tyre Javon Nobles. Im going to miss being home for many reasons...but I'll be back Sooner than Later. So its no biggie...Im not ready but im ready...just to see how everything goes..since Ive been coming back, each semester has been a surprise...so im dying to see if there any this time around. So expect me back on my shiz..... Its always sad to say bye Summer but once you do, you gotta Fall bak..

Something for ya Thoughts........Every day is a new beginning. Treat it that way. Stay away from what might have been, and look at what can be.

Why Hello My Dear........

I have been gone for a minute..sorry for the delay....Just to update i'm home still....and working....much fun...I have been spending significant amount of time with my mother..which is new but fun....lots of laughs...and broken items...I just ordered her gifts....yes plural gifts hopefully she likes it...she thinks she is turning 23...oddly that would be weird and disgusting.. but alll in all its her birthday so i guess she can be whatever she wants for that day but at midnight that carriage is turning right back into a pumpkin...In two more months its back to the "Frozen Tundra".... so im enjoying my stay at home...I come to a realization u have no control nor do u understand everything from others. The best thing is to let it be for what it is....so I kno now just take things for what they are...enjoy it while it last

quick note: Im going to VA for vacay....maddd hype....

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If we were all given by magic the power to read each other's thoughts, I suppose the first effect would be to dissolve all friendships.....

5 hour drink....Finals Week...48hrs no sleep..

Its crazy.....

FAREWELL......

Well everyone hates to say goodbye, its usually the hardest, I guess because you realized that you're not going to be accustom to seeing the same person/people around you as much any more..well until next semester.Well *Update* Just to inform you guys my roommate Mathew...will not be returning....I know i may joke around on him but overall he a nice kid..He is just...DIFFERENT...He has been a cool person to hang with and sometimes live with...So thanks Matt for the eventful two years at school. Overall, it has been real...cool.and a great learning experience as far as being a sophomore and making my way to my junior year. But lets not "Get CrazzzY" there is still the summer, and so much to look forward to but this is not about the Summer its about my past year at Plattsburgh Uni. It was... interesting..met many new faces....got really close with a few. Despise A LOT..LOL..but overall it was cool...I can't complain because I'm going to be back next year...."Get'n Crazzzy". So i just gotta enjoy the good times and let them roll and as for the bad times..as I like to say "FUCK DEM EWO BITCHES" I met many new creepers,liars,F.A.N, wierdos, and etc. I will not send any personal shots to anyone, I wish all my fans and blogger associates a great summer...and stay tune for the Adventures Of Reck the Lone Wolf....

PS: The Learning Center is Not a Place to Study Finals....It's gets stressful..just to show you how stressed my colleagues and I were...SMH

Dear Summer

Dear Summer, you know immma miss u
Cuz I had fun, I know you did too

like Purple label shit with the logo secret
Maybe,couple years, shit I might just sneak in
A couple words and like peaches and herb
Maybe we’ll be reunited and it feels so good
Have the whole world saying “there they go again”
Well I do this in my slumber Summer
I ain't like these half-assed seasons, you know how I do Summer
I spring forward, before u bring the sun up
The combo was cool but u kno how niggaz like to act up,

So I Just backed up; you know I'm not no fronter
I don't talk shit, but dese other niqqas will fool ya
Sorry D&*^$l, I'm just trying to advance my quotes
I kno im making you the butt of my jokes
But let's not stray from what I came to say
To my beloved, think we need some time away
They say if you love it, you should let it out its cage
And fuck it, if it comes back you know it's there to stay
It's tugging, at my heart, but this time apart is needed
Especially From the public,
Instead they gave me a bunch of stress
But you know me, being real 'til the casket dips
I try to be cool with all my peers
I know I'm weird… I still want them to have their share
Of the “Success” I received, I know you can't believe
I still love 'em but they don't love me
They like the drunk uncle in your family
You know they lame, you feel ashamed, but you love 'em the same
It's like when niggaz make rumors up and say slick shit
If it ain't directed directly at me, I don't respect it
You don't really want it with me, for the record
I know a lot of ya shit famzzz, you could be next kid
Keep entering the danger zone
You gon' make that boy “Ty” put your name in dis blog
If you that hungry for fame, Niqqa c'mon
Say when, air ya laundry out, end ya career…
But on another note, 'bout to take da vaca 4 da summer '
On that bus, goddamn a I made my way out the hood,

and I pray that I come back to good
But…

.I'm done for now, so 1 for now
Possibly forever,

we had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end

As long as we always remain friends

Dear Summer…..

-I hope they never find out what they already know, know, know as soon as its official we'll have to let it go, go, go so we don't confirm the fling keep avoiding all the questions you can teach me many things
i'm just scared to learn a lesson...- Drake

Edispu Nwod

Restless on the falsetto couch in the lounge chair biting nails..
...contemplating on what to do now....School is barely on his mind....
Life can't slow down for no one...even for him...
Stress is just a common thing for him, but shit he just take it all in.....
He could care less with the comments from insignificant others....
They just roll off of him, since he seems to be every one's significant other...
Main Reason of being Dolo, his shit is the only worry he has...
Mind wanders from one thing to another but he never loses focus...
He catches the Kodak Moments but never develops those photos...
Why?
He don't even know...

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.- John Lennon

Girls....Women...Difference?

Big ass Difference. There are some things one will never get. I understand there is no logic or calculator to help answer what "they" do. I guess its just an opposite thing..since Men just give it straight like it is...well some of us do...

Coldest Winter is Over...Reckless Spring is coming to an End...Hello Memorable Summer...-Tyre...

sty because I lie. Sometimes I express what i feel in poetry but i m not a poet, it just flows....I will return...

ut I purposely avoid it....I don't know the answer to why...i feel pressure i guess i buckle...i don't know why...don't judge me..just appreciate my hone

fuck I want. Sorry for my french. I hate planing things because it never go as plan, so i just take it as it is...there times when things are obvious b

types of people...some cool....some fake..some real..but in all I met different people. I guess this is me rambling on, but its my blog so i do what the

type of shit you may encounter or be forced to deal with. I think i would have went to Culinary arts school are Devry. I have encountered many different

say but i try my best, I try and help any one that willing to listen. But that is neither here nor there. Shit is crazy because they do not tell you the

I find myself fighting things all the time. Whether its with myself or others, im not ignorant but i'm stubborn as hell. I never know the right things to

Half Crazy

This track is so crazy...it depicts friends crossing that line and things changing....He is definitely underrated but I feel he is one of the top RnB dudes in the game.....


......Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (yeah)

I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (holding on)
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on

oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know (oh yeah yeah)
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together yeah

And my mind's gone half crazy (oh) cause I can't leave you alone (I'm going half crazy baby)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me (oh) holding on (over you)
Said my mind's gone half crazy (yeah) cause I can't leave you alone (and I just don't know)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on (said I just don't know what to do now)
we used to chill (yeah) we used to hang
we used to do we used to do some many things together (yeah)

Dear Blogger...

There is this thing that is kind of like a downfall pit in my soul, its called.....my conscious. I ACTUALLY CARE about shit, that's weird part. Its hard to see people suffering, especially innocent people. Every time I try to lend that helping hand its like I'm the one that gets the short end of the stick. The thing is I'm OK with getting the short end of the stick if it means people actually learn their mistakes or try to better themselves. When I refer to people...i mean friends and family. I'm actually stupid because I'm the one risking it all to ensure people change... and they never do. Its not their fault but sometimes i wish i could be like Fuck It..and just brush it off...I wish i had a side that in which everybody's disposable, so that relationships would never be a threat because I could erase the history and act like we never met. But I can't so I gotta deal with the agony of ignorance and denial of people..but I can't call them a fool for wanting to learn the hard way, when I'm really the fool for trying to help them....Blogger, Its like you're the one that understand signed by yours truly...............................................

"when the blind is leading the blind, you can't reach them.."

Frustrated

Yo, I don't wanna live no more
Sometimes I hear depression knocking at my front door
I'm living everyday like a hustle, another job to juggle
Another day another struggle, yo
I know its fucked up what a lack of cake'll do
A few people wanna move in and stay wit u
U wish u cud help them all, but you ain't able to
Cause the rents a little late plus the cable's due
you and your girlfriend are beefin' in a serious way
yoU used to b faithful NOW u at a curious stage
Finally got your mind made up on going your separate ways

Nah homie, her period's late now
ur time'z runnin out do it quickly
Cuz she starts cryin, mood's gettin sticky
If I dont want it she'll want nuttin 2 do wit me
JUST GET THE ABORTION AND I'LL GIVE U THE 250!
But if u say dat to her dan u wrong
yoU ain't think bout that u was getting your groove on
Can't take care of myself nevermind a new born
I guess the pussy got 2 good for2long
Seems like my money goes by 2 easy
Y I hate dat my job only pays bi-weekly
Fridge is empty, but I survive the hunger
Who the hell keeps calling from dis private number?
there's money on my mind and my nails are dirty
Depression starts talking and his voice is nasty
im trying to ignore but its starting to get to me
Look, mustache is full, hair is nappy
these jeans ain't mine because they way 2 baggy
Priorities fucked up and shit starting to gas me
It'z like my lil' man's life slipped right past me
His name's Duane SO WHY THE FUCK MY SON KEEP CALLIN' HIM DADDY?!
Same shit that I feared after all these years
I gotta breathe I cant believe my ears
Wiping out my eyes I'm damn near in tears
But I cant be mad, I know I ain't been there

Grab his momz I throw her against the door
But in the back of ya mind u know it ain't her fault
I ain't mad at all, I'm just hurt
I get honest 4 real I ain't been the best father like
Toys 'R Us, Chuck E Cheese
U know a lil' boy grow up wit these needs
New Year's or Christmas, even the birthday
At least bring the kid 2 his school on the first day
I cant believe it, dis the same way that I was treated
So maybe it's history repeated
I know it sounds sick the idea of having another kid
But dis one it really feel like its his

It's the truth and I hate that fact
WAIT, shouldn't of said that I take that back
Look, I apologize let's rewind dis whole story like NaS

Tried to fix my shortcomings I just came up short.........

You can be loved.....

..even if you are not perfect
even if you don’t know the answer
even if you are horribly confused
even if you can’t make anyone feel better
even if you don’t know how to make yourself well
even if you made a mistake
even if you don’t know how to be
even if you are ashamed
even if you are hopeless
even if you don’t quite fit in
even if you are scared
even if you are lonely
even if you shouldn’t be having such a hard time right now
even if you don’t think so
even if you haven’t found your place yet
even if you aren’t proud of yourself
even if no one has really seen you before
even if you don’t know what to do
even if you try too hard
even if you’re disappointed
even if you don’t really like yourself right now
even if you are beyond good advice
even if you don’t know how to cry
even if you think this post must be meant for someone other than you
by jen lemen

I loved this a lot i think everyone should read this and try to understand no matter how bad things go or how awful u think life is treating you just think of how worst things can be and just try to be happy and appreciate for all the positive things that happen in your life.

Three Sides....

My names Joe, gotta wife named Pam that I live with
But she's always in church, real religious
I had a son he was young he was gifted
Til someone killed him a week before Christmas
Three shots close range with a handgun
I knew before I met Pam that it was Pam's son
I knew i had to go on manhunt to kill they father
Eric and my man had a mutual friend
That put me on doing what I gotta do for revenge
Eric's coming home now, and he's gonna get it
And I know he'll be looking for me with his shit
Not hard to find, got them guns in handy,and
I'm in his house having sex with his family
I got his mom on the bed in the canopy
And I'm with his sister molesting her candy
Now he know it all
His friend prolly told him, and you can't hide nothing in a hood so small...


But then it came Sunday, Joe ain't have to work
Just humped on Alisha, Pam's in church
Eric bust in, Joe just froze
digging up his nose, Sally getting her clothes
Screams, "Get ready to meet your maker Joe"
And then he reach to his hip to let a few of them go
Cause he's packing but Alisha starts gasping
Holding her stomach, she started having contractions
Joe grabbed his, now they both got heat
Just gunning, both ignoring the seed that's coming
Now Alicia's in the crossfire, screams out stop
bullets in the wall, now the scenes getting hott
Next 30 seconds on the scene is the cops
Yellow tape up, now the scenes getting blocked
Barricades up, YEP, you already know y'all
Ambulance there, streets full of cop cars
Cops on the mega phone, "come down now"
But it all calmed down somehow
Joe comes out, hands showing, carrying his arms
Eric comes down, little Alicia in his arms
YEP, nothingto say, she was hit by a stray
Shots done ric-o-shade, cops take him away
But it wasn't the guns that killed Alicia, nah it was the dumb niggas wit her
When we gonna learn to treat our people sacred
Theres some type of way, man, we're all related
When we gonna grow and get rid of the hatred
'cause this shit happens on a regular basis......

Three Sides....

My names Alisha, and I'm from Brooklyn and I'm not happy
Dad pasted away, moms remarried
I gotta big bro, but he's in jail
Moms said some things like, "Stay in jail"
And I'm always with step-dad, his names Joe
And there's some things about him that my mom don't know
And he says if I tell that it won't be pretty
And I'm really scared of him, he's already hit me
He touches me places I don't like it
And I ain't talking bout a hug or goodbye kiss
I mean touch me places that's private
And he don't just touch, he put summin inside it
He says the more he does that, I'll start to like it
Hand over my mouth so I'm quiet
Moms only wit 'him 'cause our money is low
I'm sixteen but I'm shaped like a twenty year old
And my moms in love so she makes excuses
But she looks at me and sees scrapes and bruises
Why step daddy gotta take me through this
HELP, somebody, I'm getting raped I cant do this!!!
Nobody understands that I'm weary
Get goosebumps anytime a man come near me
Know how it feel to have a man use you for a cushion
All the while moaning and pushing
You try to push him, he's getting bothered
You yell and you scream but he starts going harder
Trust me, it's something you don't wanna be apart of
'cause even when it's over, your life, it'll scare you
Visit my bro, he can tell I'm sad
Staring hard at my stomach he can tell I'm fat
He can tell I'm mad
But step daddy TOUCHED me, FUCKED me, you think that I can tell him that?
Joe called the cops on him, could I tell him that?
NOPE, thought you'd agree so I keep it all to me
Baby on the way, and I'm not working
And I know it's his cause I used to be a VIRGIN!
Eric says he'll handle it, wipe my tears
He don't know, this is what it's like for years
Damn mommy please come home, please mommy don't leave us alone
Some secrets are hard to keep
Some secrets make it hard to sleep
And sleep is the only time I feel safe

Still the act haunts me, and I know I'ma wake up with step daddy on me...

Three Sides....

My names Eric, I'm from Brooklyn right there round Bushwick

Raised of honesty, loyalty, good merits
Gotta lil sister and my pops just perished
And I just came home so my freedom I really cherish
Young when they bagged me, seven in jail was a torcher
And I just did that for manslaughter
Odds was against me, murder in the second degree
They gave me less 'cause I gave 'em a plea
That's the past, now a dude home tryna clean up his past
When all niggaz know me for is the past
And my minds always thinking how to pocket some cash
Now I'm tryna live straight and get my act together
But my moms struggling, she putting scraps together
Long time ago, when I wasn't home she was cleaning my room
Cried when she found a gun in the dresser
Said no child of hers woulda had that, NEVER!!!
But with all the dirt I was doing
I felt like I had 2 protect her, I had 2 protect us
Stead of me selling crack forever
She rather me in Path mark, getting bags together
Packing bags, wont allow me to get real work
Forced me to get work
On apps they ask if you ever been to jail, like if I say yes you'll hire me
NIGGA DON'T LIE TO ME!!!
I gotta lil sister that's nine
Plus moms is chillin, wit some new dude I think she feeling
But he don't help with the bills and I'm back on the strip
So we don't go broke, I'm back to nonsense that i have 2 do
Stash ya kno, I'm killing em, only dude on the Ave. with blow
Only man in the house, I gotta bring in cash
And those two checks a month that mom get don't last
Lil Alisha still young she developing fast
Oh, you thinking the same thing, it's a hell of a task
Then it clicked me, playing it close, cops came to get me
And I moved swiftly, said they had a warrant
They knew about it all they said they had an informant
I'm back in this caged up cell
With the apes in jail, now I'm back in this eight by twelve
See I tried to live right
and I'm trying not 2 cry at night
But society ain't made for niggas to live right
Mommy please write
Mommy make sure Alisha keep her shit tight

And I'll be home real soon, don't cry, it's iight.

Persistence...

I know, I know, I know, I have to keep you guys updated. I can't just start a blog and just leave ya in suspense as far as what's been happening in my life Right???...True but its hard to manage my thoughts into a square device as such as a laptop, when so much happens.... Anyway let me fill you guys in... I am a president of a Black/Latino club on campus at PSU. It just had one of our biggest events, One Mic, it's basically a talent show with students and a guest speaker that we usually get to do slam poetry. It was very.....interesting, TahNk You all, for my hosts....and

from a female who did a Jamaican rap, a Jenifer Hudson remake, Lauryn Hill poet(my favorite), Lil Kim poet, and lastly the mouse singer. It was good turn out, after that i attended a few college house parties( Intoxicating Fumes , Alcoholic beverages,) Overall my

weekend was nicee......I just want to give me condolences to Rihanna's Face...(moment of silence).....Yea I heard it was true that he did in fact hit her... ALOT! I hope he does find his way and I hope Jesus, Abraham, and Moses can help him in his new way of life through Church.

Last week was smooth as a baby's bottom and my weekend was quite the adventure i had jello shots which taste like medicine...very good though (Thanks 218) I then attended a few house parties with many (W>P) I lost my mp3 player and had my hat removed from my

head but managed to make it back to my room safely... I did however pass the club (TABU) 4-5 times and never went in..dunno why!! I ended my week off pretty good in 218, getting a better understanding of THREETEL...And boy was I ENLIGHTENED...(ROCKIN THAT THANG...Ghanaian Version...ANnyWay I'm back On the Radio, Unfortunately you won;t be able to listen to the best underground radio out there but the pod casts will be coming sooon....(can't keep a good street sweeper down)

I also want to touch basis on the fact that hiP Hop is back. I truly believe it. I enjoy listen to new artist that aren't afraid to push the envelope and be different. Wale, Drake (Black WHite Boy from Degrassi), Asher Roth, Young Chris, and Ryan Leslie very talented artist and you should definitely check them out..YOUTUBE easy as that. Imma try and post some stuff from them. I also can't wait for SPRING Br3aK!!!! So on that note im going to leave you with my homgirl's quote which I actually like...

"I'll tell you this. People don't fall in love with what's right in front of them. People want the dream. What they can't have. The more unattainable, the more attractive."- RACH"

PONDER.....
Fade Out...................................................................

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Let it Snow...

Well this was a pretty extravagant
day. I woke up and realized that my window was filled with white flurries of snow. At first i was like, "damn, hope classes are canceled", what do you know...they were. I figured I go out to see how much snow there actually was. It is actually still snowing, right now its at 20-inches deep (Thank You Global Warming) but the plow man takes care of that stuff 4 the students. I went to dining hall with my home gurl..Cee, to get some grub, food was fairly well... She wanted a shout so i figured i give her one....My roommate unfortunately is just different from what I'm used to being around me...but its a learning process.









One class tomorrow at 6, so I can sleep late. I've messing with the i pod touch...and I must say, shit is amazing, my whole schedule for class is there and important dates for homework, projects, etc... Apple definitely is blowing competition way out the water...Back On track..my mind gets like that, I was highly disappointed in the amount of people that watch Real Chance of Love...come on people like this is ridiculous...theses dudes on a show looking for women....DESPERATE...I personally think they're homosexuals nothing against the gay and lesbian community but its like they try to hard, and people actually watch this nonsense...I think im going to make a show about me having asthma and any girls that are willing to date a dude with asthma called...Puff of Love...Starring Mr Bojangles...taking applications...Ladies